Saturday, March 17, 2018

Daily Blog 1 (March 18th 2018)

It's been a while since I did any kind of exam and I'm about to have one in less than a week
I am trying to study now, like making notes, doing mock up tests, etc ah I almost forget how to be a student and it's not good since I AM A STUDENT forgodsake

I feel like I need to remind myself that I am a student. A decent one if I want to haha.. *sigh*
Need to be more serious
Student writes hence this daily blog
I never make daily blog before

Let's see

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

how dark is your darkness?
do you not see even a single spark of light

how thick is your numbness? 
can you not feel even a swift of emotion

how bitter is your truth?
are you getting sick of swallowing it for too long now

a thin streak of light is coming
a tingling sensation beneath your skin
freshness in your tongue when you say
I will try it again

Saturday, October 28, 2017

Breaking The Habit

"I'm picking me apart again"

The moments when I pick myself apart is the most hardest one because when others try to pick me apart I can easily defend myself by thinking or saying "you don't know a da*n thing about me" but when it's me picking myself apart I can't say the same thing can I?

How am I gonna say to myself "you don't know a da*n think about yourself"? That would sound like I am totally lost and have no conscience at all

The process is indeed hard "like opening the wound" but after that I'll be in my way in owning my journey

"I don't want to be the one the battles always choose"

I can start choosing my battle instead of letting the battles choosing me

"Memories consume" don't let yourself  being eaten by your memories
It's okay to distance yourself from your past, to choose not to relive it everyday

"I don't know how I got this way. I know it's not alright"
As long as I can bravely admit I am not alright

Held your head high, and say
"I'm breaking the habit tonight"

Breaking The Habit : Song and Lyrics by Linkin Park

Friday, June 19, 2015

When Men Get Catcalled by Women (Buzzfeed Video)

If We Lived In A World Where Women Catcalled Men...

Posted by BuzzFeed Video on Sunday, September 28, 2014

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Kingsman: Nothing’s Really New but Nothing’s Boring and Everything’s Fun

Colin Firth termasuk aktor yang lebih sering memainkan peran yang tenang dan serius dalam drama, (meski King Speech sebenarnya tergolong lucu di mata saya). Dua Film Colin Firth yang agak nyeleneh yang pernah saya tonton hanya Mama Mia! (2008; supporting actor) dan Gambit (2012; lead actor), memang sih Colin Firth main di 2 film Bridget Jones yang kocak namun perannya di situ justru sebagai Darcy yang kaku, jadi enggak masuk hitungan lah.

Jadi waktu saya lihat trailer Kingsman: The Secret Service mata ini langsung lengket karena Pak Colin kelihatan keren banget dalam adegan action dan somehow still looks elegant with the suit, the (what now known as hipster) glasses and the black umbrella (meski bagiku dia akan selalu keren tanpa cela kapanpun dan di film apapun)  

Film ini sebenarnya tidak menampilkan plot, penjahat, motif, lokasi, gadget yang revolusioner atau baru. Semuanya pasti sudah pernah kita lihat dan kita dengar di film-film agen rahasia dan action. Dalam dialog Kingsman justru itu disinggung dengan sadar diri, salah satu anggota Kingsman berucap bahwa cerita-cerita tentang agen rahasia sekarang ini terlalu serius, nggak ada lagi yang lebay dan teatrikal.

Lebay dan teatrikal juga bukan resep baru buat para sutradara, namun memang bukan resep yang gampang dipraktekkan juga. Kalau nggak pas jadinya malah aneh, atau lebay yang bikin jijay. Namun di Kingsman jurus lebay dan teatrikal ini justru jadi kunci bagi semua premis-premis tua dan klise untuk disajikan dengan seger banget.

Kalo lo sekarang mikir “premis-premis tua dan klise kayak apa sih maksud lo?” 

Maksud gue yang kayak gini lhooo (awas spoiler)

  • Konsep guilt dan balas budi
  • Ayah tiri dan domestic abuse
  • Good brain + skills but bad motivation and attitude (urakan) 
  • Social class, priyayi versus rakyat jelata
  • Bootcamp and harsh recruitment setting
  • Penjahat yang berniat menguasai dunia (huahahahahahah)

Contoh premis-premis di atas kan sudah sering banget diulang-ulang di berbagai narasi. Film Kingsman nggak berusaha untuk menyamarkan premis klise itu dengan complication, psychological game, intense drama, atau apa lah yang lain. Kingsman mengikuti dengan santai tahap demi tahap  dari sebuah pola film bergender spy dan action, dialognya juga nggak witty atau vulgar banget.

Jadi apa nih yang bikin bagus?? Andai bisa in-depth interview sama sutradaranya. Apakah karena akting aktor-aktornya yang (beberapa) sudah mateng banget (selain Firth ada Mark Strong! dan Michael Caine)?  design produksi? pengambilan gambar action sequence yang keren? Or it’s just basically the beautiful bespoke tailored suits that looks magnificent on Mr Firth's body

But maybe… just maybe, a good art is the one which is fun to be dissected and talked  about and yet impossible to  theorize about

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

8 Different Things and 6 Same things I Do When Going to a Rock Concert NOT in My Early Twenties

Last year, an unexpected great occasion happened. I read that Avenged Sevenfold will do a South Asia Tour and will play in Jakarta in Jan 18th 2015. I was so excited since I missed their previous show years before due to common undergrad student’s poor finance.

Second chance rarely happens in concert situation here in my country so since I’ve got a job now and slightly better state of bank account I bought the pre-sale tickets immediately. It was fun, and yet I’ve noticed that a couple things indeed change when you’re going to a rock concert NOT in your early twenties

  1. I said I bought ticket immediately but actually I’m not rushing.. and didn’t felt nervous either. I was calm enough and pretty much ok when I saw the VIP front section was sold out until a younger friend of mine found other website that still has VIP front section and kindly offered to buy it for me. It used to be an ultimate target for me to be in front row…but now I’m content for middle section.
  2. Felt a bit of relief when I opened the promoter’s website and read that show would start at 7 PM… really… that’s neat! So it would approximately end at 9 PM. Praise god I can get decent hours of night sleep before Monday and its meeting routine
  3. Then after I acquired the real ticket (my very kind friend picked it for both of us) I read on it that show started at 8 PM… hmm 10 PM is kinda late, but I’ll just nap a bit in the taxi
  4. I opted for dark blue long sleeve t-shirt and dark blue jeans instead of my usual BLACK
  5. I stocked my little bag with snacks and water, just to keep the energy level while waiting. I usually survived with only lunch and not eating anything until after the show, somehow water was also not a necessity for me.
  6. I didn’t put heavy eyeliner and dark eye shadows also didn’t do black nail
  7. After the gate was opened and we were waiting in front of the stage for a good 2 hours, I was so glad that the crowd wisely decided to sit down for a while on the floor. That’s good, we need to save our energy for the 2 hours show
  8. Then I got a bit miffed when randomly they started to stand up while the show isn’t started for at least another hour… calm down kids we didn’t need to abuse our feet.

But after that, some things remained the SAME

  1. My level of excitement was definitely raised as per usual when roadie and tech started to come up the stage and set the equipment
  2.  Start to chant the band’s name with fellow fan
  3.  Making the loudest scream when band entered the stage and hit us with first song
  4. Head banging and singing and jumping to your favorite songs
  5.  Make usual horn sign with both hands
      Literally sighing and swooning together with other girls when watching Synyster Gates doing solos on stage like this